With broken wings we try to fly
Fly so high to touch the sky
Will we succeed or will we fall
And become the most broken of them all
to begin with.
Like AlwaysWake up, get out of bed
Plaster on that fake smile
Wipe away the tears
Act as if you're happy
Fake it, like always
Look in the mirror
Ignore the flaws
Tell yourself today will be different
Lie, like always
Don't let anyone see the scars
Long-sleeves and made up fairy tales
Don't let them see the tears
Don't tell the truth
It was the cat, like always
Don't fall down
Not till you're alone
There you can fall apart
Alone, like always
Comforted by the blade
HappinessYou wear happiness
as your mask
Paint on a smile
as fragile as glass
you are screaming and crying
Lashing out at yourself
as you are slowly dying
Cover It With InkI will not break another person in my life
Those who I have broken I will fix
I'm done with this thought that I'm nothing
Cause I'm something that no one will never be
I'm done crying myself to sleep
I will laugh at the thought
I will never pick that blade up again
Cause if I will cut something it will be paper
I will cut paper
With my pen
I will write my emotions
And I will not hide
I'm not evil
I will cut my paper
I will use my deadly weapon
I feel bad for the item I'm covering in ink
I know how it feels to be covered
I know how it feels to be cornered
I will not take any pills
This is my medication
I will learn
Something that we all have known
When we were kids
I will learn to
Love myself again
Only My ImaginationI can see you, your short brown hair
your big brown eyes
your smile that always gives me butterflies.
I can taste you, savory on my lips
tangy in my mouth
sweet on my tongue.
I can hear you, your calm breathing next to my ear
your steady heartbeat against my chest
your soothing voice.
I can feel you, warm against my skin
cool to the touch
burning with our joint passion.
I can smell you, your cool masculine musk
your fresh clean skin hair
your strong spiced deodorant
The Things We Leave Unsaid Common wisdom dictates that meaningful feelings for another ought to be expressed directly and honestly. However, advice is given to be neglected and so too often we are poisoned by our own silence -- the things we leave unsaid.
We are fortuitous that the opportunity for the lesson to be followed by the illustration presents itself. Let us use our discretion and semi-omniscience to observe the conversation between the two young men before us.
"Oh hi. How are you?" It's him.
"I'm good. You?"
"Good." I've been better, but there's no way I'm going to tell him that. "Man, it's been a long time." I haven't seen her in forever. Almost three years.
"Yeah man, I haven't seen you in forever."
"Yeah, so I hear you're dating Rachel now?" He is taller than me, and I know she must like his red-rimmed wayfarers. Family's rich too. Must be nice.
"Good for you. How's she doing?" I know she's fine.
"She's doing just fine."
Keep On ShiningThis truth it has stabbed my heart
Like a thousand needles slowly making their way
This love has made me fall apart
I'm broken glass, I'm the broken glass of man
The stabs gets harder every day
The needles they come closer to my heart
As I grow it tears me to pieces
I'm tattered cloth, thrown in the litter
As I try to recover and stand straight
I realize how crocked my back has been all this time
I can't walk straight
Cause my guilt and my shame, brings me down
But even thought through all this
I have still small light that shines to me every day
Cause even in my darkest days
It can still make me smile, it always wants me to live
I talk like this is all over
I talk is as I'm soon to die
But the truth is
I'm here to stay, just to watch that small light, every single day
Tomorrow Is Another DayHow can I dream
When I'm hurt?
How can I smile
When I'm dirt?
How can I hope
When I'm forgotten?
How can I be
When I'm nothing?
I don't know how
But there are some things
That you just have to do
If not for yourself
Then for someone close
I don't know if these words
Will impact you, or set an impression
But take this advice
From an old cutter
It gets better, even if your life has melted like butter
You're not forgotten
You're always in someone's mind
You're not dirt
Cause to someone you shine
There is still hope for you
Even if your dream is broken
I noticed that
When the girl I loved, came even closer
Don't hurt yourself today
Cause you never know
when I cutI pick up the razor blade,
I take a deep breath.
I look down at my pail skin,
I place the razor blade on it.
I take another deep breath,
I close my eyes and then open them again.
I pull the razor blade across my flesh,
I take the blade and do the same,
on the rest of my arm.
then I'm done,
the pain is the best release I've had.
I Am That GirlI'm the girl who writes poems
Because it helps me get my feelings out.
It's the only way I know how.
I'm the girl who will love anyone
No matter who they are.
I'm the girl, who can be annoying at times,
But I love life and everything in it.
I'm the girl who will always make
Room in her heart for someone,
Because I love just about everyone.
I'm the girl, who will flirt with you,
But never admit to you how I really feel.
I'm the girl who will truly love you.
No one will ever love you as much as I do.
We Lost Each OtherI regret the day that I lost you.
I should have tried harder,
I should have made more effort,
But you should have too.
We both loved each other,
But I guess not trying resulted in us
Losing the person we loved the most.
I've never loved someone so much
Until the day I met you.
Maybe if we had tried harder
We would still be together.
But at the same time
If we have stayed together
Then we wouldn’t have met other people.
We wouldn’t have gotten the chance
To fall in love with someone else.
We wouldn’t have gotten the chance to let go
And learned to start over
Even though we lost each other,
We gain so much knowledge from it all.
We found out who we really were,
And what we want out of our lives.
So maybe losing each other was either
The best thing or the worst thing,
But neither of us will know how the other still feels
Because we lost each other.
I'm ScaredI'm scared to love someone.
I'm scared of what might happen.
I don't want to let someone in,
Because I don't know what might happen.
I'm afraid, and I shouldn't be.
I shouldn't be afraid of something
Like this, but I am.
I know what love is,
I have seen it,
And I have felt it,
But I'm still scared.
Maybe I'm scared
Because of what happened last time.
It didn't work out,
And it didn't turn out that great.
I was miserable,
Because I didn't know
What I was supposed to do.
I didn't know how to love someone,
Maybe because I didn't know
How to love myself.
StrengthAfter everything that she has been through,
She finally feels her strongest.
She feels like nothing can bring her down,
And for the first time she’s happy about who she is.
She no longer thinks that she is useless.
When she looks in the mirror
She sees someone who is pretty
Rather than ugly.
It took her awhile to get where she is now,
But she is forever grateful for the obstacles in her life
That made her strong.
Her new found strength
Makes her feel like she can do anything
And she can be anything that she wants.
She is finally the girl that she wanted to be,
But finding that girl took a little while
And took a lot of pain and heart ache along the way.
But she did it.
She survived the pain and heart ache.
She rose above when everyone expected her to fall.
Those that have brought her down
Have made her that much stronger.
She has lost someone that she has loved.
She was dying on the inside,
While on the outside everyone saw her fake smile.
But now everything has changed.
Do You Remember?Do you remember that poem you wrote me?
Well, I found it the other day.
It was in my jacket pocket.
I didn't know one piece of paper
Could bring back so many memories.
It's amazing how long it has been
Since you gave it to me.
I am thankful that
I had you in my life.
All the good and bad times,
They made us that much stronger.
Thank you for coming into my life.
Thank you loving me.
I couldn't have asked for anything better.
So you see what a simple
Piece of paper with words on it can do.
It made me remember why I cared so much.
It made me remember you,
So thank you for writing it.
She Always Had LoveShe has made mistakes in the past,
But considering everything in her life hasn’t always been great.
She isn't evil, heartless, or selfish,
She’s so shy and closed off because of everything in her life.
All her life she's felt like a disappointment,
She’s always felt second best; she's been deprived of love,
She spent years completely alone.
So don’t blame her for being who she is.
Some people aren’t meant to be saints or angels.
Some people have darkness in them,
And most people have a past that they are not proud of.
They are equally as good, bad, selfish and selfless as each other.
However when it came to him, she always made the right choices for him.
She always did what was best for him because she loved him,
She didn’t pretend to use him,
Or mess with his head.
What she felt for him was real?
She always saw the good that was in him.
She loves him as much as he loves her.
She admits that she does wrong,
And that she’s not perfect.
But all s
What Happened to Her?What happened to her?
What happened to the girl she used to be?
She became someone different.
She let go of the old her
And she became someone else.
She became the girl, who wore make-up,
She became the girl, who wanted to be pretty all the time,
She became the girl, who cared about how she looked,
And cared about what others thought of her.
But most of all she became the girl she said she would never be.
Maybe she has changed for the better,
And maybe she didn’t.
Let’s just hope she knows what she getting herself into.
Since she has started to change
She has felt so much better.
She feels like she belongs,
And she finally feels whole.
I often wonder what happened to her.
I wonder if she still lingers inside of her
Waiting for the day that she can come back,
But the truth is, she doesn’t want to be her again.
She doesn’t want to be that broken person that she was,
Maybe someday she’ll look back at the old her,
And realize how much she has changed
FadingLosing hope in everything,
Don't care what the future brings.
We're all gonna die anyways,
Why not tomorrow, why not today?
Tell me the reason, my purpose in life,
Tell me, why not suicide?
Give me reasons why I should live,
If I took my life, could you forgive?
I'm sorry, I know you thought I was stronger,
But I told you I can't take it any longer.
You told me these things, I told you I'm not,
I tried, I fought, again I lost.
This battle with myself, I've had enough,
Endured so much, depression's tough.
Battling addiction of self-harm too,
You have no idea what I've gone through.
I wanted to tell you.. So many times I'd tried.
"How are you?" "I'm fine," I lied.
When I tried to speak, the right words wouldn't come out,
'Cause for so many years, I filled my mind with doubt.
I was constantly bringing myself down,
Never really felt like I was wanted around.
When the time is right, my life I'll take.
That'll be the last time I break.
They Give Me HopeYou see those stars in the sky,
Well they give me hope.
Every twinkle, every bright light,
Well it captures my heart.
Every time I see them,
I know they're all I have left.
I know that they'll stay the same
When everything else changes.
It seems kind of funny
That I'm talking about
A big ball of gas in the sky,
But those stars up there,
Well they know my secrets,
They know my wishes,
They know my fears and desires.
Although I cannot touch them,
And they cannot answer back.
I know they'll be waiting.
They'll be there when I go to my window.
They'll be there to hear me
When no one else will.
So you see those stars in the sky,
Well they give me hope.
When I feel like giving up,
They give me strength
When I don't feel like getting up.